I know that if I disciplined myself to write a little bit every day, we’d all enjoy this blog more. Life piles up pretty quickly around here and there are so many interesting and funny things to write about. I often think, “Now, THAT would make a great blog post,” but I don’t have time to write well about it, so I don’t write anything. Then several days go by and it’s hard to get back into the moment that so struck me.
So . . . back to the recital. . .
It was held at the Old Stone Church in Branson, which is a lovely, historic venue. The piano is a wood (not painted) baby grand with significantly firmer action than our home instrument. There were actually 68 students signed up to play in the recital, so the organizers had broken it in to two recitals, back-to-back. We three were in the 3:30 PM version.
Nerves were a big deal for me. I must have an over-active nervous system or something, because between the adrenaline and the sheer fear of doing something I hadn’t done in 32 years, I was literally a nervous wreck. Andrew seemed calm as a cucumber, and although Jessica may have been nervous, she didn’t let it show.
My teacher seated all of us students in the order we would play, which was very roughly from youngest to oldest. However, I was seated next to an 11-year-old whose dad is the professor of piano at our local college. I was terrified that she would play hers perfectly and I would blow it. While I sat there and tried in vain to calm my nerves, my teacher came over and talked with me. She wanted to let everyone know that I was an adult student. Now, I thought that was pretty obvious, but whatever. Furthermore, she told the head organizer – the emcee type lady – that she wanted me announced as such before the thing started. Lovely.
Mrs. Emcee welcomed everyone and talked for a long time and then pointed me out to the crowd. She told them I hadn’t played in a recital in over 30 years and that they should give me gracious applause when I played. I could feel my ears burning, and I’m sure they and my face were the color of my skirt (very dark red).
The three of us were spaced out through the program, and I played first. God was good. I did make several small mistakes, and one big one, but I was able to keep going and I think it came off okay. Everyone clapped (but of course, they had already been told to do that) and I was so relieved that I almost started crying. I was trembling as I stumbled back to my seat. amazing what having all your blood turn to adrenaline will do to you.
Andrew played his piece the best I’ve ever heard it! He was wearing an outfit that I just happened to find a week or so ago. I was decluttering and found a pair of black boys’ dress pants and matching jacket that someone had handed down to us years ago. I don’t even remember who or when, but it was probably three or four years ago. I just set them aside, because they were too small for Josiah and way too big fro Andrew. It turns out the pants are a size 10 slim (Andrew’s EXACT size), so I sent the (terribly dusty) jacket to the cleaners. With a white shirt and tie, he was really dressed to the nines. So he marched his smart self to the piano and FORGOT TO SCOOT THE BENCH IN. I sat there thinking, “Oh no. He’s going to have to reach for the keys, and the part at the end where he uses the pedal – he won’t even be able to reach it!” But not to worry. He played like a pro AND reached the pedal somehow. We all clapped like crazy.
Jessica had the most time to get nervous, because she played nearer to the end with all the high school students. She was lovely with her long hair, and she played so gracefully. Jessica puts a lot of emotion into everything she does, and her piano playing is full of feeling. There was one note that I wondered about, but she just kept on going. The ending of her piece is very dramatic and she made it shine.
So we all did well and survived. Mrs. Walker also thought we did well, and if if was good enough for her (the nicest lady you’ve ever met, but also the pickiest, most perfectionistic, most demanding-of-excellence teacher you can imagine), it was good enough.